"Come with your arms raised high"

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 17:43:56 GMT

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Sun, 17 Jul 2005 22:31:24 GMT

I have a new livejournal, and it's friends only, so see what the deal is there, yo.

[[Click the word "there", genious.]] [: <3333

I have a LOUSY BESTFRIEND!

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 20:48:59 GMT

Okay, so I finally made up with my bestfriend, right? Well...she promises to take me to Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory to make up for being an asshole, and I slept over my grandparents' house lastnight, and SHE WENT TO SEE IT WITH EMILY AND KEVIN!

Bestfriends can suck big monkey balls.

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 15:58:22 GMT

I don't like my bestfriend. She's pissing me off lately. All she talks about is her latest obsession...some Kevin fag. He's like 4'11. She thinks it's "love" ha. She hung out with him like twice. She needs to GET A GRIP! I'm so sick of hearing it...the best part is...she made me come to camp with her, and her neighbor, Emily went, and she was with Emily the whole time...at OVERNIGHT camp. Three nights. It may not seem hard, but when you're practically ALL alone at a HORSECAMP, it's hard seeing your BESTFRIEND ignore you. Her and Emily hung out with Kevin at Darien Lake before camp, and then they were bragging about that Sunday, because it was Kevin's graduation party. All they talked about was Kevin. I want to meet this Kevin bitch, so I can strangle him. That way, no more "I love Kevin. He's perfect. We were made for eachother." Kevin doesn't even like her. Jenny, my "bestfriend" told me that he likes some Jill girl. So how in hell can she "love him?" Haha I hate it when people throw the word, "love" around like it's the word, "hi." Please leave me comments either telling me how wrong I am...or how completely stupid she is, and how I'm not over reacting.

KTHNX! [:

Two entries in one day. ROO TAH!

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 20:40:03 GMT

Screw guys...who cares.

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 13:44:54 GMT

Okay, so I'm in a good mood again, and I really could give a shit less about boys. Whatever. They're just a phase...and even if you do go out with someone you like, you're not going to marry them.

I hate myself.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 17:37:46 GMT

I hate myself, and I hope I die as soon as possible.

Please take me soon, God. The sooner, the better.

KTHXBYE.
</3

Sherkston 2005

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 17:33:29 GMT

Hi. I'm Chari...and I like my tongue...and my bestfriend, Jenny.

I also like to make weirdass faces to scare my bestfriend.

I bite my lip a lot.

I have a long tongue.

Sometimes, I get sad thinking about the boys I never had.

Resting up before my binge drinking. Hehe but I already have a beer in front of me.

Do I look innocent?

Contemplating what to drink next.

MORE BEER!

Kiss me...I'm SHITFACED!

Drunken showers are amazing...especiallu when you forget to take your clothes off.

I'm very very very ugly. I'm sorry if your eyes were burned from looking at those.

That one's for Ale[xxx]. Yes...it DOES say, " I <3heart<3 [bi] boys." :D

That's the only pretty one I took. And again...sorry if your eyes fell out.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 15:08:28 GMT

Well, typical Chari forgot to bring her digital camera. Hmph. Forgive her...[?] =/ But she's going to Sherkston, so she'll take pictures there! By the way...Ale[xxx] makes her smile x 8. He is le sexy beast. [=

KTHNX.
♥♥

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 17:43:17 GMT

Yesterday, June 23rd was the anniversery of the first day I ever cut. But guess what? I'm cut free! Woo! No more depression and self mutalation for me. And I didn't even get help for it, either...because I'm stubborn, and if I want something a certain way, I take care of it myself. I guess I was just always like that. Hmph. Guess what?!?!? TWO DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!! AH!! My bestfriend, Jenny and I are going to Sherkston tomorrow until Tuesday. How fun is that shit? [: Life is good...but boys suck x ten. [RAWR!] I guess I give a shit |less| about boys...I just want to have a good summer with my friends. So boys can suck it! o:< o__O Ethan's going to a carnival I'm going to tonight. I think he's going with one of my bestest guy friends that I've known forever, Tony. Should Chari take pictures with her digital camera? I will if I remember.
Pee ess --- I [heart] <3 bi boys. They make me smile...especially Ale[xxx.] [: Hehe.

Leave me comments if you want. <3333333

KTHNX.
♥

I miss all my LJ buddies.]=

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 23:22:22 GMT

Hey guys...ugh. I haven't updated this shit in FOREVER! Just so you all know...I'M OVER ETHAN!! [= Leave me a comment if you missed me or love me! <33

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 21:57:26 GMT

barroom xxx hero: Someone just IMed me, and said..."want some chicken salad? I made it with ham."
Muga933: lol
barroom xxx hero: How could it be a chicken salad if they put ham in it, instead?
Muga933: lol idk
barroom xxx hero: What a dumbfuck.
barroom xxx hero: I should beat them with a spiked bat, just for being stupid.
Muga933: lol ur gunna kill some1 someday
barroom xxx hero: Dam straight.
barroom xxx hero: Damn*
barroom xxx hero: ;-)
barroom xxx hero: Can I use YOUR car to put the dead body in?
barroom xxx hero: :-P
Muga933: we'll see lol
barroom xxx hero: Hahaha SCORE!!
barroom xxx hero: Remember when you were at my house, and you were like..."isn`t Amanda the girl you said you wanted to kill OJ Simpson style?" And I was like..."yes." And you were like..."yeah, uhm...that kind of scared me."
Muga933: lol
barroom xxx hero: Good times when you come over.
Muga933: yea
barroom xxx hero: Those potheads asking you if you were my babysitter.
barroom xxx hero: You can babysit me ANY day. ;-)
Muga933: i bet ... ud like that
barroom xxx hero: Damn right, I would.
barroom xxx hero: :-D
Muga933: y would u like it so much?
barroom xxx hero: Because when Mike would babysit Chari, "babysit" could have many different meanings.
barroom xxx hero: ;-)
Muga933: lol
barroom xxx hero: And you`d basically be getting paid to fool around with me. :-P
Muga933: lol
Muga933: it be fun...

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 21:56:24 GMT

Evola says: Hey.
barroom xxx hero: Hey.
Evola says: What up?
barroom xxx hero: Nothing...you?
Evola says: Nothin, just got home from track.
Evola says: Feeling better?
barroom xxx hero: Nah.
barroom xxx hero: I`ll be right back.
Evola says: Sorry. :-\

Auto response from barroom xxx hero:
Damn...just kiss my fucking ass...I hate you...you`re a dumbfuck douchebag...just...just GO DIE!!

ETHAN MURPHY, I HATE YOU!!! GO RAM A DILDO UP YOUR ASS AND KISS MINE!! GO DIE!! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!

Evola says: WHoa.
Evola says: Fighting?
barroom xxx hero: Yes.
barroom xxx hero: U hate him.
Evola says: You mean "I"?
barroom xxx hero: Yes...my bad.
barroom xxx hero: Ell oh elle.
barroom xxx hero: Elle*
Evola says: lol Well, if you don't like him, I dont.
Evola says: But why the sudden change of heart?
barroom xxx hero: Awe, thanks Greg.
barroom xxx hero: I`ll epxlain in one moment.
Evola says: Okay.
barroom xxx hero: Well, I was telling him earlier yesterday, and I was like..."dude...I feel like our friendship is drifting apart...we hardly tell eachother shit anymore...I miss us telling eachother shit." And he`s like..."I know, dude...I miss you...we need to hang out." The later, he was like..."hey." And I was like..."hi." And he`s like...."we need to talk." And I`m like..."okay." And he was like..."Chari, I can`t like you how you want me to...I have Tori..and I love her, and I`m not ready to give her up." And I was like..."WOAH...Ethan, what the fuck are you talking about? I don`t even like you like that anymore." And then he was acting all weird, and he was like..."well, if it weren`t for you, me and Tori would have had fucking fine relationship, but you and Chris (the kid who used to like Tori) fucked it all up! You always have to say shit..." blah blah blah. "And I talked to Tori and Alex on the phone, and they fucking hung up on me, and now I have to choose between Tori and Alex, or you...and it`s hard." And I go..."are you kidding me? You have to CHOOSE? fuck that...fucking have them...that`s bullshit." And he goes..."whatever."
Evola says: He's a homo.
barroom xxx hero: Oh, and I was like..."I bet our friendship doesn`t mean SHIT to you." And he goes..."damn right, compared to mine and Tori`s relationship." I said that before he flipped shit.
Evola says: I hate to break it to you Chari, but he loves penis.
Evola says: lol
barroom xxx hero: Damn fucking right he does.
Evola says: And if he's gonna choose some trashy hoe bag over you, he's a stupid person who loves penis.
barroom xxx hero: Haha awe, thanks, Greg.
Evola says: I'm serious.
Evola says: lol
Evola says: I mean, let's be honest here.
barroom xxx hero: Haha you`re amazing.
Evola says: Noo, you are. And dumbasses like Ethan dont realize that.
barroom xxx hero: Awe. :-D
barroom xxx hero: My profile is complete.
Evola says: 8-)
Evola says: Alright, you feelin' better? Because I'm mad hungry. ;-)
barroom xxx hero: Haha yes.
Evola says: lol I'll talk to you after I eat.
Evola says is away at 5:45:48 PM.
barroom xxx hero: Haha alright...thank you, bab.

Auto response from Evola says: I am intrinsically no good
I have a heart that's made of wood
I am only biding time
Only reciting memorized lines
And I'm not fit to touch
The hem of your garment
No, no I'm not fit to touch
The hem of your garment

I have no love but only goals
How very empty is my soul
It is a soul that feels no thrill
A soul that could easily kill
And I'm not fit to touch
The hem of your garment
No, no I'm not fit to touch
The hem of your garment

barroom xxx hero: babe*

My new song...and shit...and a conversation with Ethan.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 01:02:52 GMT

RolliNgStoNes233: hi
RolliNgStoNes233 returned at 8:05:42 PM.
barroom xxx hero: What`s the matter?
RolliNgStoNes233: everything so i decided to sleep
barroom xxx hero: Like what, hun?
RolliNgStoNes233: just random shit ok
barroom xxx hero: Wow, okay.
barroom xxx hero: Yeah uhm...you need someone to talk to, I`m here.
RolliNgStoNes233: thats great thc
barroom xxx hero: I know shit`s not going your way right now, and I know it sucks the cock and shit, and I promise...no matter what it is, I`m here...and if there`s anything I can do, ask me...I`ll do it.
RolliNgStoNes233: no it doesnt suck cock.. the thing is i really just don't care aonymore
barroom xxx hero: Care about what?
RolliNgStoNes233: i dont care about anything actually
barroom xxx hero: Oh, okay.
RolliNgStoNes233: r u going to the dance
barroom xxx hero: No...why?
RolliNgStoNes233: jus wondering
barroom xxx hero: Okay.
barroom xxx hero: You`re not, right/
barroom xxx hero: *?
RolliNgStoNes233: please tell me your kidding
barroom xxx hero: Okay, phew...just making sure.
RolliNgStoNes233: the kiwanis dance.. ya kno these days it's such an awesome place to hang out.. make shure ur parents at ther right at 9 to pick uyou up and take you home to ebd
barroom xxx hero: Hahaha.
barroom xxx hero: My dad read that, and he`s laughing...he`s like..."that Ethan kid`s kickass."
RolliNgStoNes233: lool thats great
barroom xxx hero: Ethan, you woke up the bears...why did you do that?
RolliNgStoNes233: idk
barroom xxx hero: :-P
barroom xxx hero: Cheer up, emo kid.
barroom xxx hero: Ethie bear, I pwomise I`m here for you...through thick and thin...through darkness and in light...through boners and vaginas.
RolliNgStoNes233: hahahahahahah
RolliNgStoNes233: niice chare
RolliNgStoNes233: char8
barroom xxx hero: I try, I try. 8-) Boom boom tsh!
RolliNgStoNes233: lol
barroom xxx hero: Yo yo, my name is Ethan, and I`ll take your whores,
You better tell your daddy to lock all his doors,
because when I come in, I`m looking to score,
If I don`t get enough, you`ll hear me say, "more!"
I don`t know you, hoe,
I just want mad doe, fo` sho.
RolliNgStoNes233: hahaha\
barroom xxx hero: My freesyles are amazing...I know.
barroom xxx hero: :-P
RolliNgStoNes233: tru
barroom xxx hero: Hahaha.
barroom xxx hero: I wuv you, babe.
RolliNgStoNes233: I luv ya 2
barroom xxx hero:
Ethan`s got mad bitches hanging on his ass,
Asking for his bus pass,
Trying to get with him,
He plays lax, so they gave his hair a trim,
He`s got a pretty girl,
Makes other bitches want to hurl,
Because they want to be his girlfriend,
He promised Tori it would never end,
The truth is he`s mad hot,
He knows how to hit the spot,
This stubburn chick just won`t stop,
He can make her cherry pop.
RolliNgStoNes233: hahaha..
RolliNgStoNes233: idk im juss afraid she'l do osmething at the dance now..
barroom xxx hero: You want me to go?
RolliNgStoNes233: idk
barroom xxx hero: I`ll be your undercover mother fucker, if you want.
barroom xxx hero: :-P
RolliNgStoNes233: haha
RolliNgStoNes233: her and chris are prolyl talkin about it rite now
barroom xxx hero: Dropping mad beats until Chari hits the streets.
barroom xxx hero: Pretty soon, Ethan`s scinario will be comin` through ya sterio.
barroom xxx hero: :-P
RolliNgStoNes233: right..
barroom xxx hero: stereo*
barroom xxx hero: ;-)
barroom xxx hero: I`m so white, it hurts.
RolliNgStoNes233: great
barroom xxx hero: What`s the matter, Eth?
barroom xxx hero: Seriously.
RolliNgStoNes233: idk i juss have a really bad feeling about her and the dance er w/e and its juss gay I hate it
barroom xxx hero: You shouldn`t feel that way.
barroom xxx hero: I don`t think she`ll do anything.
RolliNgStoNes233: really y do u think that
barroom xxx hero: She loves you too much to screw up.

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 01:14:17 GMT

barroom x hero: Some little fucker IMed me today, and started talking shit, and I guess I didn`t type fast enough for him, and he was like..."what`s the matter, can`t think of a come back?" And I was like..."if I wanted my cum back, I`d make your sister spit.
barroom x hero: "*
MrKurtCobain99: I love you!!!!
MrKurtCobain99: OMG.
barroom x hero: ?
barroom x hero: Why do you love me? Elle oh elle.
MrKurtCobain99: Because your sexy.
barroom x hero: Hahah thanks.

barroom x hero: Some little fucker IMed me today, and started talking shit, and I guess I didn`t type fast enough for him, and he was like..."what`s the matter, can`t think of a come back?" And I was like..."if I wanted my cum back, I`d make your sister spit."
psh YEA RIGHT: hahahahahahahahahahhahahahajhahahahaha
psh YEA RIGHT: okay, that was the funniest thing ive heard in a long time
barroom x hero: (=
barroom x hero: SCORE!!!
psh YEA RIGHT: hahahah, i might be stealing that line
barroom x hero: Go for it.
barroom x hero: (=
barroom x hero: I`m smarter than I look. ;-)
psh YEA RIGHT: haha thats what they alll say

barroom x hero: Some little fucker IMed me today, and started talking shit, and I guess I didn`t type fast enough for him, and he was like..."what`s the matter, can`t think of a come back?" And I was like..."if I wanted my cum back, I`d make your sister spit."

Auto response from EmO c00kie: cruise control set to 65, when the radio's playing my jam tonight!

308.0022. cheerrr me up.

EmO c00kie returned at 8:04:02 PM.
EmO c00kie: hahahahhaa
EmO c00kie: i love tou
EmO c00kie: *you
barroom x hero: (= Hooray!!
EmO c00kie: haa

barroom x hero: Some little fucker IMed me today, and started talking shit, and I guess I didn`t type fast enough for him, and he was like..."what`s the matter, can`t think of a come back?" And I was like..."if I wanted my cum back, I`d make your sister spit."
sO seductivex3x3: hahahaha
sO seductivex3x3: that`s awesome

barroom x hero: Some little fucker IMed me today, and started talking shit, and I guess I didn`t type fast enough for him, and he was like..."what`s the matter, can`t think of a come back?" And I was like..."if I wanted my cum back, I`d make your sister spit."
RolliNgStoNes23: lmfao

^I want to be with him. (That`s Ethan.)

Help me out...Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, or Power Rangers wallpaper? VOTE IN MY COMMENTS! (=

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 02:50:52 GMT

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
lumpyoatmeal409: teenage mutant ninja turtles walpaper

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
mux716: ninga turtles all the way
mux716: i think the blue power ranger is gay
barroom x hero: Haha I love them.
barroom x hero: (Ninja Turtles.)
barroom x hero: Haha I bet they`re all gay...fighting the pig.
mux716: lol
mux716: yeh

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
ragateer1: teenage mutantt nija turtles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ragateer1: i love them
ragateer1: there my favorite
barroom x hero: Me too.
ragateer1: i dressed up as one for skool one day lol
barroom x hero: Hahaha nice.

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
Baysidex9: teenage mutant ninja turtles

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
GrEaSyVeGgIeS: teenage mutant ninja turtles

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
Allie Marie x o: teenage mutant ninja turtles all the way
Allie Marie x o: power rangers are gay because they always have a different pink girl
barroom x hero: Hahahahah nice.
Allie Marie x o: that bugs me
barroom x hero: Hahaha I love you.
Allie Marie x o: i know why they are all blonde and they are just down right stupid
barroom x hero: Hahaha.
Allie Marie x o: how hard it is to punch a bad guy in the balls i mean honestly
Allie Marie x o: lol
barroom x hero: Hahahaha they`re "GAY"...so pretty hard.

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
cheaptrick253: power rangers all the way

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
FatallyyGorgeous: power rangers. tmnt are getting to mainstream

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
EmO c00kie: tough call.
barroom x hero: Ha, life is SO hard. :-P
barroom x hero: Gosh...I`ve never had such a hard decision to make...this could REALLY change my life.
EmO c00kie: ha, totally.

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
hollywo0d 01: power rangers

barroom x hero: Should I get Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles wallpaper, or Power Rangers wallpaper?
LegendaryDoors: turtles

HELP ME DECIDE!! VOTE IN MY ELLE JAY!! <3333 (=

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 00:48:42 GMT

Yeah, so uhm...I haven`t updated in a few days or something...things aren`t nessicarily getting better with Ethan, but I`m happier now than I was before. Mike Ferrentino asked me if he could "borrow" my Super Nintendo, so I said "yeah." He was over with Gavin a week ago or something. So I gave it to him with ALL my games. There`s about at least sixty games...including my favorites:

- Super Mario
- Aladdin
- Beavis and Butthead
- Power Rangers
- Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Tony, Mike`s little brother who`s my age came online one day, and he was like..."we`re not giving you back your Super Nintendo." And I was like..."psh, damnright you ARE." And we fought about it. Elle oh elle. Then, Ethan came online yesterday, and he`s like..."hey...I spent the whole day at Tony`s. We played Super Nintendo." And I was like..."haha." And he`s like..."oh yeah, uhm...we`re NOT giving it back...it`s awesome." And I was like "uhm...yeah! You are giving it back...I love Super Nintendo." And he`s like..."well then, you`ll have to come to Tony`s and play it with us...you`re not getting it back." And I was like "what games did you guys play?" And he was like "Super Mario." And I was like..."nice...but I`m still getting it back." And WE fought about it, too. I shall get it back, damnit! =0 Grrr!

Thomas Bonelli---you will be remembered...I love you so much.

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 00:27:22 GMT

Well, there`s a boy named Tom Bonelli...he was new this year...we went out for three weeks...he was nice. The teachers have been out to get him since the beginning of the year...he`s been in the principal`s office EVERY single day. Today, he gave this kid, Jared a shove, and he got sent down to the principal`s office...and uhm...he got...EXPELLED. =( I can`t even breathe right now...you see, even though we broke up, he still wanted to be with me...but I said no, because I was waiting for Ethan...but now, I realize that I DO like him...and...I just hope it`s not too late...I cried all day today, because it`s never going to be the same...in the morning, I always went to see him...just to say hi. And everyday for math, I see him, because he gets his books to go to science...and that`s not going to happen anymore. =( And I don`t know how I`m going able to adapt to the fact that I won`t see him everyday anymore...I feel so empty inside right now...I haven`t felt this way in a longass time. He`s going to Orchard Park now. He`s grounded from the phone and computer, but I called him tonight, and we were talking for a little bit...I was so sad, though...today, in lunch, this girl, Jamie Godwin, she`s in his homeroom, she was like..."Tom`s in the office...he`s crying, and he has to leave our school." And no one believed her, so my bestfriend, Jennie and I went upstairs to investigate. There was no nurse today, so Jennie went to the office, and asked for a band-aid. The only person in the office with Tom was this old lady, Ms. Kane...she`s very nice. She went down with Jennie to get a band-aid...and I was talking to Tom, and I told him he couldn`t leave me...when I saw Ms. Kane and Jennie walking back, I said, "so...do you want a hug goodbye?" And he said, "yes." So I hugged him, and I kissed him on the cheek, and then we walked out...it was still lunch, so as Jennie and I were walking down to lunch, we started crying...the truth is, I do have feelings for him...he DOES mean a lot to me. But I guess I was so stuck on Ethan, I refused to tell myself I still had feelings for Tom. He really IS a good kid...there`s a dance tomorrow, and he can`t go now, because he`s in trouble...but he said he`ll probably be going to the next one. Maybe if my school wasn`t a private catholic school, he wouldn`t have been expelled. This is going to be awfully weird not seeing him everyday...I`m not going to like this feeling...it`s going to suck major cock. I`m still in utter shock and disbelief that he`s GONE. This is so hard...ugh...I don`t like this, Goddamnit!! I WANT HIM TO STAY AT OUR SCHOOL!!! I NEED HIM!!! =( I figured I`d put some pictures of him in here...

^^He`s the one in the grey sweater.

^^He`s the one holding that kid.

^^Haha awe...he looks like he`s wearing a mouth guard for hockey in that picture.

I`m going to miss him so fucking much...ugh...I wish it didn`t have to be like this...=( </3. Thomas Bonelli, I love you oh so much! <3<3<3<3<3<3 You`ll ALWAYS have a special place in my heart.

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 21:24:12 GMT

This time, I win...so here`s your kiss goodbye.

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 08:36:14 GMT

Please let me know that my one bad day will end. I will go down as your lover, and your friend. Give me your lips, and with one kiss, we begin. Are you afraid of being alone, because I`m LOST without you.

You can`t hold onto something that doesn`t want to be held onto.

Every now and then, you wake up to a day that affects your whole life...the day in your life when you know you`ll never be the same...the day that changes the way you think about everything and everyone.

There are moments in your life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them up from your dreams, and hug them for real.

A difficult beginning leads to an astonishing end.

Everytime you look at me, just remember--I could have been YOURS.

^That`s my profile. God, how can I get Ethan to like me? Well, he said he DOES like me...what I mean is...how can I get him to break up with Tori for me? =/ Please help. I`m so tired...I`ve been sitting here, thinking about him all night and morning.

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 18:06:40 GMT

I went over Amanda`s house lastnight, and I was working out this morning...I think I`m just going to stick with starving myself...working out is too hard for me. Mike`s acting like an ass...surprise, surprise. Ethan and me aren`t really talking right now...I think I`m going to give him the cold shoulder...I really don`t know what to do anymore...I want to be with him so bad, but he`s with Tori...but Chris wants to be with Tori...so if they break up, it`s not like Tori won`t have someone to be with...plus, she still likes Chris. Yeah...it`s messed. Greg and I had an interesting conversation lastnight...it was very sexual. You know how it goes. =P I`m getting a Queen Size bed in a few weeks. I`m so excited. Awe, and I miss laying on my bed with Mike, playing Super Nintendo and throwing my condoms at eachother...that was such a fun night. He NEEDS to come over again before vacation`s over. I miss him so much! Haha what...it`s been like...two or three days? Ah...he`s so beautiful. =D There`s got to be a way I can get Ethan...any advice, anyone? Leave it in my comments if you have something that might be able to help me get him...=/ <3<3<3 Much love.

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 05:32:53 GMT

Okay, I`ve come to the conclusion that I need to lose weight...AND...I want a six pack awfully bad. Also, my face always looks full...I got to get rid of that, too. Can you say thigh master, butt buster, tredmill, and crunches? HERE I COME, FUCKERS! I`m ready to take you on! =P

-:- Updating, bitches! -:-

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 16:54:36 GMT

Lastnight was amazing...Mikey Ferrentino, slept over lastnight, and we layed on my bed playing video games...(Mario for Super Nintendo.) Teehee. (= We kept throwing balls at eachother...it was quite fun, dudes. CJ, as usual was glued to Ps2 for five hours. Elle oh elle. Mike left Saint Francis, and now he goes to East...but I`m so glad I still get to see him, because I missed him...I think I told him that like twenthy times yesterday. Anways, me and Mike got pretty far on Super Nintendo. I`m proud of our success. I`m starring at his beautiful eyes as we speak...we`re just looking at eachother, watching CJ sleep. Well, kiddo`s...I`d have to say...I had a great night...I needed this. (= Leave the love, fuckers!

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 03:22:11 GMT

^^Results of no makeup=EW.

^^Us being dumbasses.

^^Us being goofy.

^^Ghetto picture.

^^Gayyyyyyyyyyyy.

^^That`s my fat stomach. Yes...I know...I know. I fat. I want to lose like thirty pounds. I`m really going to try hard. (= <3<3<3 I wish I had Ethan. =/

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 20:51:04 GMT

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